7/23/16

red sun red sun red sun

Saw my friends. It was a short time, but very needed, and very helpful.
I did want to write about something else, but after thinking about it in the shower, overall, I feel differently.


Overall, I feel a monotony in our lives.

Like when we're sitting around the fire, and none of us can talk.
We're all thinking something. Why can't we just say it?

This whole time, I did not hear a single thing about Jesus. I did not see a meeting of Christians after the heart of Christ. I saw a meeting of a group of friends who do Christian things and go to church.

It makes me sad. Like, it's not bad that we had a good time. It was fun. But it was... shallow... leaving more to be desired.

I thought about it while we were in the car. If we're not to talk about Jesus, then the only things left to talk about are so shallow. I don't like small talk. Even with my closest friends. Small talk is fine. fun. good enough. normal. But... it's just empty fluff after the fact.

It was really nice to see everyone, but I can't help but feel unproductive, shallow. That's my perspective; from someone who hasn't been involved.

Everyone just seems tired, letting each step clunk down clumsily on the path they walk because... because... kicking up dust. Wanting more.